i’m up too early. my body started to feel itchy and my mind became too active for me to go back to sleep. i’m not sure where i’ve picked up this horrible trait, but i seem to have procrastinated on quite a few thing and now i have to suffer the consequences. i hope i learn from this…

I asked Linda to place my final offer on the Highland condo today. It is the max I can spend but nothing I’ve looked at has come close to the same feeling. We’ll see what happens. =)

well, i don’t know if my wedding will have a best man although i’ve often thought about it. finally, after all these years, if given the opportunity, i know who i will ask.

Eriko told me that she made the reservation for the shrine over the phone. They will put money down on the 30th… I had trouble sleeping, apparently I want to work on my project for Isilon because I couldn’t stop thinking about it. So, I’m up.

i find myself often listening to sentimental music or daydreaming of events, past or future, which strike me emotionally. it is a very curious process. perhaps the daily routine (in a very loose sense) is so logical and devoid of obvious emotional impact that i conjure up things? maybe it is to find balance? i must daydream about sad events to counter the happy times, which make the present elation even more real? but i also daydream about happy moments in the future, which strike me in a very similiar way. overwhelmed with gratitude. perhaps i am hardening my emotional receptors in anticipation of rockier times ahead? i’m quite curious.

yet another night of non-contiguous sleep. the last night i slept solidly was the day before Eriko arrived and i can’t even remember besides that. it has been a mixture of things – thoughts, temperature, Bailey… i’m such a tight schedule that i can’t just laze indefinitely. which reminds me, time for work…